Hey there you guys! As much as I'd love for this journal to be about how happy I am to have recently passed my 10th DAnniversary, sadly, it is not.
As of the past week, I've been having mental breakdowns whenever I try to draw. Crying, sobbing, sitting in a room for 2 hours in the dark staring at the wall, not eating, eating too much, and I've even resorted self harm to try and cover up the pain that my anxiety around drawing is causing me. I've had issues with creative anxiety in the past, but my ability to create has always come back to me in 3 days or less. Its been over a week now, and I'm still grappling with myself to even open up SAI